I might lay this out here. I spoke about it a bit in my about page. I wanted to develop an understanding with my readers though.
I had a long chat with an aquantiance this last weekend. It was rather pleasant having someone who let me lay out the plans for my books and work through rubber duck debugging the major plots and points of my story lines.
I watch a lot of anime – stupidly large amounts. Check Myanimelist for a better example of how many days of content I’ve wasted my life on. That has deeply influenced how I set up my stories. Not a lot of anime end directly with a “and they lived happily ever after” ending. They leave you hanging quite often honestly. A lot of what I enjoy is psych-horror and deep philosophy.
So, what does this have to do with my stories and the name I use for everything on the internet?
A – I was raised Christian until the end of high school. Due to circumstances with an ex, I dropped my religion like a sack of hot potatoes and jumped around for a while to determine who I was. Unitarian Universalist, Humanist, Heathen, Wiccan, Agnostic, Buddhist, Atheist. I’m in a murky zone of don’t hurt others and we’ll all get along. So, no, my name isn’t because of that.
It has a lot to do with this image that I portray with my characters and my stories. I present dark topics. I should probably throw a trigger warning on pages. It’s not Jason or Pinhead, but psychological trauma. My stories and their endings aren’t roses and sparkles.
What I want with my stories is to touch on relevant topics affecting today’s society with more depth, from an inside view of what those topics do at an individual level, rather than glossed over as a media statistic.
I feel like a chapel with a preacher sitting in my head spouting words that should affect the masses. I want at the end of the stories for the reader to walkaway as the counterpoint to it, asking what they would have done in the same situation, had they been in it.
I want to take some people to church, to preach it as it is, to issue to those with blinders on their eyes a command of save thyself. All I feel I do now is contain that demand.